January 5, 2023

A Self-Reflection Bootcamp

It’s only been two full days of the GCIL program, and I am already beginning to struggle with all the things about me that are being brought to light through all the interactions and activities. There is so much happening, and although they are all fantastic experiences that I do not wish to miss out on, this is a big change and a definite shock to my system. A lot of my self-reflection is happening simultaneously, and it’s a bit overwhelming.

Coming on this journey, I knew I would be pushed outside my comfort zone, which, if I am being honest, I haven’t done in quite some time. Having the freedom to retreat to my home when I feel the outside world is becoming a bit too much, and having the time to recharge isn’t something I can do now. Staying when my mind is saying, “Why haven’t we left yet? We usually have left by now” has awakened my internal awareness of how I handle things when I force myself to sit in the discomfort of not doing what I naturally tend to do.

India will challenge me in a way I have never been challenged before; it will increase my capacity to practice introspection and my willingness to learn about my fundamental nature. It will confront me with some truths about myself that I may not want to admit. Still, I know that continuing to push forward and soaking up this experience as much as possible will undoubtedly make room for significant self-growth. I will learn what I like about myself, what I may want to work on changing, and what I am entirely onboard for.